L▲DYTRONICOLE

For I do not know how my mind works

Previously I was feeling under the weather and sleepy as hell but after watching Game of Thrones and almost finishing my History paper, I decided to retire at 11 PM.

It’s 2:43 am and I can’t stop thinking of everything and nothing at the same time. Insomniac as I have always been as pale as I may seem, which unsurprisingly must come hand in hand, I am on Tumblr ranting.

I am the most indecisive person I know when it comes to myself. But amongst everything else, I know where I stand, in school, in family, in relationships and what not.

Need not, I must say that I do not know where I stand on my own. I am not lost, just often dazed at the puzzling mysteries I have yet to unfold and some get rid of.

Needless to say, I am in dire need of wanderlust and this pounding on my chest which seems to have taken life 24/7 ever since I had a relationship is what keeps me up and going most of the time.

But then my mind, is a whole labyrinth infused amusement park and as I rant and amount to nothing, I can’t help but feel sort of betrayed that I am going against what I should be doing now—- sleeping.

But I have yet to fill my mind with something comforting to accompany me throughout the night.

I wish he was here.

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